What Matters....
I wasn't sure I really wanted to blog about what's been going on in my life lately, but something told me that it was important for me to share. I really wasn't expecting the outpouring of support that I've received since then, and for that I am humble and very grateful.
I've been struggling lately with the mental side of this all.... having spent the last 10 years of my life chasing my dream of professional drag racing with all that I have inside me. I made decisions to put off having a family, settling down, thinking that if I could just reach my dream that those things could wait. But after 10 years of passion and though I am normally a positive person who believes that my time will come, I am now wondering if my dream has come in the way of my reality. Although I am proud of what I've accomplished racing, I still haven't landed my big "Break", and I am wondering if this chase for a dream has cost me my chance at a normal family life? Will I ever reach my dream or will I regret the fight for what it cost me?
But after posting that on Wednesday, I realized what an important part of my life racing has been to me.... not for the sport or the speed, but for the PEOPLE. I have had the chance to meet so many wonderful people, and made so many great friends through drag racing. Seeing the outpouring of support and the many emails I've received from friends, and people whom I only *met* online through drag racing has really meant so much to me. Drag Racers are a huge family, and they are there when you need them most.
Its especially humbling to know how many of you have also dealt with someone who has gone through this experience. I know every case is different, but knowing how many others have dealt with this same issue makes me not feel so "weird" and so much like damaged goods.
I went to the doctor yesterday, and am very happy with her determination to not take any unnecessary drastic measures. She seems dedicated to trying to save my ability to bear children if at all possible, and for that I am grateful. She did take 2 biopsies yesterday, so now we are awaiting the results. I hate the waiting game, but for now, other than some soreness, everything is okay.
Thank you all for your words of support. I cannot begin to say how much it means to me.
I've been struggling lately with the mental side of this all.... having spent the last 10 years of my life chasing my dream of professional drag racing with all that I have inside me. I made decisions to put off having a family, settling down, thinking that if I could just reach my dream that those things could wait. But after 10 years of passion and though I am normally a positive person who believes that my time will come, I am now wondering if my dream has come in the way of my reality. Although I am proud of what I've accomplished racing, I still haven't landed my big "Break", and I am wondering if this chase for a dream has cost me my chance at a normal family life? Will I ever reach my dream or will I regret the fight for what it cost me?
But after posting that on Wednesday, I realized what an important part of my life racing has been to me.... not for the sport or the speed, but for the PEOPLE. I have had the chance to meet so many wonderful people, and made so many great friends through drag racing. Seeing the outpouring of support and the many emails I've received from friends, and people whom I only *met* online through drag racing has really meant so much to me. Drag Racers are a huge family, and they are there when you need them most.
Its especially humbling to know how many of you have also dealt with someone who has gone through this experience. I know every case is different, but knowing how many others have dealt with this same issue makes me not feel so "weird" and so much like damaged goods.
I went to the doctor yesterday, and am very happy with her determination to not take any unnecessary drastic measures. She seems dedicated to trying to save my ability to bear children if at all possible, and for that I am grateful. She did take 2 biopsies yesterday, so now we are awaiting the results. I hate the waiting game, but for now, other than some soreness, everything is okay.
Thank you all for your words of support. I cannot begin to say how much it means to me.
Posted by Erica Ortiz on Friday, May 30, 2008 at 8:25 AM | Permalink 
I am so glad to see how much support you are getting. Hang in there! We are all there for you.
Posted by
Merrycricket |
6/01/2008 6:10 PM
I am glad to hear that your doctor is as determined as you are to take the least drastic measures possible, and that you are getting all the moral support you need. Again, best of luck to you.
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Posted by
Devilish Southern Belle |
6/04/2008 9:50 PM
Hey Erica
Stay strong, life can be a bumpy ride sometimes, but keep your chin up, and give it a kick in the butt back.
Posted by
Bill Yoe |
6/05/2008 12:53 AM
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